Time to Clear the Cobwebs

Hi all,

Wow, it's been a while since I wrote anything! Sorry about that. Sooo....here is what's going on.

I am preparing, in a really sort of anemic way, to do a half marathon, which is supposed to be taking place in about a month. Yikes. So, what I think I need to do is decide for certain which event I am going to participate in, and get with it already. I was going to do the Cowtown Half, here in town, because it looked like fun and it's here in town. But, apparently I need to feel like part of a community or team, and most of my training folk are doing a half marathon in San Jose the following weekend. I think I would be more motivated to, well, train harder if I knew I was doing an event with my friends. So I'll ask 'em during strength work tomorrow night and see what the lay of the land is. I really treasure that whole team thing. It's good. And I think this lot will even wait for me to come in at the finish :-)

So, yeah, I've really been struggling with motivation. I keep thinking that it's not enough to just show up anymore, that I need to do more, be faster, or something. That there should be more happening in the results department. But I'm not faster, and then I just get depressed. I need to convince myself, again, over and over, that showing up and working out is, in fact, enough, and it's so much more than I was doing this time last year that it's hard to even put that in words. So I'm gonna show up at the track tomorrow night, folks. Slow, but I'll be there. Part of the problem is that I timed myself for what I thought was a mile and was super bummed about how slow I was. Then I discovered that I had actually gone about 1.3 miles....so I'll try the timed mile thing again this week and see what happens.

I am starting to really like swimming. I intend to keep swimming once a week...we will see how tough I really am when December comes around! But really. I'm getting better at it, it's not such a struggle all the time (who knew! Remember when I could barely get the hang of breathing?? And look at me now! I can do it!), and that gives me a smidgen of hope. I still hate the whole idea of weeds and grass in the lake water, but I can swim laps in the nice, clean, heated pool til the cows come home.

Please help me hang in there, folks. I need you all to keep me going, and you have no idea of the very huge difference you make to me. Thanks!