Anxiety Reduction...an attempt

Day 41
ibuprofen: none (not quite sure how that one happened)
13 days until triathlon

Today we went for another swim in the lake where the race is going to take place. The water was a lot calmer than it was last time we went out there, and I actually managed to (1) do a crawl stroke for a little bit of the time and (2) mostly avoid the weeds, which in the basal ganglia or whatever that most basic part of your brain is, I am sure will suck me in and drown me. Our resident science teacher carefully explained to me that these are not viney weeds and are extremely unlikely to actually catch on to me, but you know, sometimes logic just does not obtain. I looked at today's swim as just an exercise in anxiety reduction. I keep hoping that if I keep going out there and doing what I need to do, when the Big Day comes (looming closer all the time....makes me a little short of breath just thinking about it....), I will be able to complete it with a minimum of freaking out.

If I can just get to my bike, I think I'll be fine. If I can manage to breathe while in the water, I will be fine. If I can get in the lake and back out of it at the other end....I will be fine. Really. I'll be fine.